Letter for Mr. BJ

Hey. It's has been a long time I update my blog. And this is the post is and only is for you.

2009 June 2 is the first day we met. I think you had forgotten. But I still remember. Cause it's a memorable day for me.

After that, we had became friend till now.

The first time we go out, is to Old Town. *laugh* The blue blue Kelisa is my favorite car ever. I'm shy, but, I pretended I'm so calm. As this is the first time I went out with you.

Hmm.

31 December 2010, the last day of 2010. Before I enter National Service, we went for movie, 'The Tourist', night market, and eat! *That's the first time I ate in that food court* I feel so sad, since this is the last time we meet before I went National Service. We'll only met after I leave NS. I know I'll miss you very much.

After I enter NS, every time I get back my phone, I'll call my gugu first. And you're the second one I text. *You're less important than my family, tounged*

23 January 2011, that's your birthday. But the big head me didn't wish you. Cause after my phone was kept. I just remember I haven't copy your number. Stupid me had spoil my own plan to give you surprise from NS. And my roommate mumbling this at me for a loooong time. *sigh, really big head me*

Never mind, since I'm so kind. That week, immediately after I get my phone and called my gugu. I called you. Sang birthday song for you with my chicken little voice. *oops*. I remember you said, you're so surprise that I remember although I had no Facebook in NS. And you said you scare you wouldn't had the ability to give me surprise when my birthday.

Oh ya. I think I had promised you to went to your convocation. But, so sorry. I didn't attend. If you would to angry me, I will accept it. Since I had promised you.

Then, on the year of 2011, my birthday. Finally arrived. I posted myself birthday wishes in Facebook. And you just realize it's my birthday. That time. I'm so so down. But I just forget it.

Sometime. When I don't disturb you for long time. You wished that I could continue disturb you. I was like in heaven.

Once, you went to Thailand with friends. But you promised me. You'll text me as soon as you reach bm. But you had forgotten it. I was at KL. And I worry you for whole day. I keep on texting you. But, I have no reply from you. My heart beating so fast. I worry that something happen to you.

Hmm. I did apply for Maktab Perguruan, and I success. I was being delivered to Terengganu. I was totally blanked. And first thing I done is calling you. And you give me comment. I feel relieved after listen to you.

One day, you fetched me and JY to night market. I walk very faster with her. You followed us. Don't know why. Feel so happy. You said we seems like goto night market to meet people but not shopping. *blekkk* Cause the main aim we go out is cause that my dear JY wanna know who is the one I always mention to her the one who took photo so amazingly. *This is the fact you don't know* Maybe you'll feel WTF, but, it's true. She's one of my best sisters, she comforted me everytime when you make me feel down. After that, we went to eat your favorite CharKoayTeow.

There's another time. We went night market again. So late. And a lots of stall had closed. I met my Eco workmates, Wilsyn. She asked me whether you're my bf? I smile brightly and tell her nope nope. I and you just friend. But actually, I wish that I could tell her, yeah, he's my bf, jealous? *dreaming*

Then, another case that I misbelieve someone. I called you. You talk with me. My worry feeling had diminishing.

One day, my dad had fall sick. A serious one. I was so helpless. I can only accompany him. Actually deep inside, I was so worry and wanna cry. Then I texted you. You comfort me. You asked me whether I did bring blanket and pillow or not because I wanna stay overnight with my dad in hospital. And it's raining heavily and very cold.

There is a incident had frightening me. That time, I texted you for so many times. But you didn't reply me at all. Do you know? How I passed through that night? I know, it's my own fault for going out with that devil. Comforting me is so hard to be done by you?

2012, I had forgotten whether we Had ever went out or whatever. Maybe this is the year. I wished so much I can delete from my memory.

We went Sunway. On the last Sunday in the March holiday. I was so happy at first. You helped me to carry the basket. Small small things would make me feel touched. I'm kind of little girl who easily touched by small actions. But before we went back. I spotted something. That I dislike extremely. I was so disappointed. Apart from healthy issues, I think I worry you, will addicted. I will feel so, because ily. If not, I wouldn't care you at all.

Someday. I open your Facebook again. I saw your profile picture with a girl. Oh gosh. I was totally doomed. I was like dying. Totally doomed. I can eat nothing for whole day.

After that, I don't have any motivation to study hard. Really. Totally NO motivation. I missed you so much. I thought you'll text me. But I'm wrong. You never texted me. *heart break* I missed you till I can't study well, so I decided to text you. *sigh* Again and again, I was disappointed.

Today, I texted you again. I think so long and lastly press send. When I received. I was shivering. I feel so cold. I wanna text you for many days already. But I type and delete. I am not brave enough to text you. Cause I'm scare. I scare you wouldn't reply me.

Maybe you will never read this blog post that is for you. But I think after I wrote. I'll feel relieved. Perhaps you'll as usual. Pretend that nothing happen. But it's okay. I will break my heart myself. Don't worry.

I just wanna say. 主动久了会累. Moreover. It has been so long time. How much ILY. But how much you had make me blue. I feel exhausted at last.

I'm shivering when I wrote this all out. *cried* You're so important to me, but. I seems nothing to you.

These are the memories. In my mind. You gave me. These are not everything. But it's almost all of the big memories you gave me. Happy one. Sad one. Still thanks.

Mayday

Happy birthday to myself. Again. Alone. Only celebration w/ my mummy. PnTeohPhayChin and family. Thanks a lots!

黄鸿升 - 七十亿分之一

太阳　海洋　撞成地平线
就把我的世界都改变
第一个吻的时间
地球转了几圈
骄傲在流星雨中瓦解

那一天　那夜　我灵魂里面
重叠了一个完美的画面
你瞳孔像一轮满月
静止在我眼前
从此以后没人比你更明确

陪你到雨季
陪着你到天晴
陪你日日夜夜守护一个奇迹
若不是上帝睡着我不可能那么幸运
能遇见地球上七十亿分之一的你

传说中每个人都拥有天上一颗星星的国度
都拥有一颗心的孤独
很多年才邂逅一个人
在宇宙连接成彼此的星座

直到天空慢慢慢慢倾斜
直到我默默埋葬了无邪
当时你一片片捡起的落叶
碎成了无限记忆时的遗憾

谁还记得
谁第一次牵起手
谁记得
谁第一次不肯走
第一次
永远就停在那时候
以后再想念也不能回头

风吹来了就去飞
列车停站了就跟着离开
青春流逝了就忘记去爱
当时光一滴滴蒸发
习惯了一切都理所当然
习惯你成为我习惯的习惯

等到我
察觉到你的悲伤
都已经太晚了
永远还是不够远
是什么
让不会改变的全都变了
终于落单的肩膀
终于悲哀的夕阳

想起你
天空就慢慢倾斜
拥有你
快乐才如此的强烈
为何你
一片片捡起的落叶
碎成了无限记忆时的遗憾

谁还记得
谁第一次牵起手
谁记得
谁第一次不肯走
第一次
永远就停在那时候
以后我再想念也不能回头

最后一次和你一起看同一片繁星
离最近距离却像隔了最远的星
上天已经给我七十亿分之一的幸福
而我活该执着日全食的盲目

如果我们等以后各自被拆散
到世界某一个角落
就算是日和夜夏和冬都交错
换日线外我也可以感觉你的笑

认输　让步　也不能赢回失去的最初
很久很久以后更多人海茫茫
只有你　只有你　最了解我的倔强
只有你　飞上过我的天堂

直到天空慢慢慢慢倾斜
直到我默默埋葬了无邪
当时你一片片捡起的落叶
碎成了无限记忆时的遗憾

谁还记得
谁第一次牵起手
谁记得
谁第一次不肯走
第一次
永远就停在那时候
你和我再想念也不能回头

啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦　啦啦啦啦啦啦啦

太阳　海洋　撞成地平线
就把我的世界都改变
第一个吻的时间
地球转了几圈
骄傲在流星雨中瓦解

那一天　那夜　我灵魂里面
重叠了一个完美的画面
你瞳孔像一轮满月
静止在我眼前
从此以后没人比你更明确

Happy 2012!

This is the first day of 2012!
First post.

Dear readers,
this morning,
I went help out at BM zi ji ge.
For wedding registration.

Quite smooth. (Doubting)
Yah, a little bit problem. (A little bit?)
Ehm, got problem, but solved successfully!
Hahaha.

First and foremost,
got a pair of couple's certificate got problems.
At last, printed a new for them.
I was there as a "pengesah".
Quite fun.
The couples are cute.
They asked me to take photo w/ them too.
Seems soon I'll become the copy of our cute TEACHER <3

Hahaha.

Forgotten something.
My TaeKwonDo instructor, Mr.PhangSinFaat,
registered today too! :D

Congratulations ya couples!
Stay sweet always.


Have a blissful year of 2012 too,
my dear readers.
Love ya.

December 29, 2011

2011 is gonna end,
very soon.

Review of the year:
I went to PLKN, I took my SPM result,
I went to interview for Maktab, I was chosen to go Terengganu.
I continue my study in SMJK Jit Sin, Form6 instead.
I went working. I went eco-work too.
I became General Secretary and Discipline Group Leader.
I was happy, I was sad, I was crazy.
I was grateful I have my dearest sisters,
JY, PC, Meow, Jelly.

Sometimes, I feel, although you had came back
from university, but, our distance seems became so far.
That I can't reached you.
I miss the time you're still at uni.

I know you wouldn't see this.

I really miss you.
I try to hold my feeling.
But I'm failed to do so.

Roar. Roar. Roar.

I WISH YOU WOULD COME BACK!

Byee.
Try to do my economy today!
I don't even have energy to do anything,
WITHOUT you.

Although I forced myself to be strong. :(

Raining Day

I went to buy Ayamas today.
Such a cold day.
Raining heavily.

Just wanna say,
if you really wanna leave me,
I'll be strong.
Seriously, I'll.
And tell you,
I'm still alive,
without you!

Tomorrow I'll hang out,
with my dear sisters.
Meow and Jelly.

And JY fall sick.
Wish her to recover soon ya!

Smile, I'm okay!

Off,
Good night my dear readers!
<3

Merry Merry Christmas

Hey readers!
I'm here again.
This time by iPad,
it's Christmas day :p

Should be a happy day,
But why my heart keeps feeling pain.

Seriously
It's because my date w/ of someone special
had gone. I know I'm sad.

But I don't know why you do so to me.
It's a bad feeling when
you're sad during festive season!

I miss you. (ToT)/~~~

Gotta go.
Will go out later.
I really wish that you're here w/ me during this Christmas!

Buh byee.

School reopen soon,
But I haven't complete my economy!
I'm so lazy! (^_-)

Anyway add oil to myself.
I MUST complete it before school reopen!

Hwaiting!!! o(^_^)o

2011 year end camp

This year end camp had finally ended.
Tiring, but enjoyable.
Enjoyable,
because of our dear tuan you.
You guys really make me
LAUGH a lots.

Not so happy recently.
But, in the camp,
w/o looking at the campers,
I'm so joyful!

At the last day,
what ShawShyue said.
Should really be think again by campers.
Thx ya, ShawShyue :D

I feel relieved bit now.

Gtg now.
At here. Wanna say a big thank you!
For all, helping in our camping.
We'll meet again ya. <3

I can said that, JSPB is full w/ love!
Tuan you come back although they're now in uni/working.

Wishing the juniors will follow
the footsteps of them.

Take-A-Rest

Hey, I'm here again.
Maybe it's because of holiday,
I'm bored.
Although my to-do list is FULL,
before today.
But I completely done all of that!!

Woot. How cool.

Btw, why rain on tonight?
I feel like going to night market,
to seek foods! Grr.

Sorry for being grumpy.

I love santa claus!
He's so adorable. :D
Seriously, I feel like hug him!
Oops.

Nothing to say dy.
I miss ya.

Year-end camping 4days to go..